tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76841658469990318732012-02-16T00:07:56.172-08:00一个普通，开朗的人。当心情跌入低潮时，只想找个地方来恢复原来的那个我。答应自己不再悲观，不再不受控制的乱发脾气。每一天都是新的开始，从新出发，一定要成为爽朗幸福的太阳，为身边的人带来希望！！Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.comBlogger411100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-85568016841137896972012-01-15T06:12:00.000-08:002012-01-15T06:12:24.076-08:00Well, I had a long time didn't write any blog. Just suddenly feel like I want to write down something at this time, at this moment.<br /><br />I'm suppose to face the books for the whole day, but I ended up with facing laptop screen for the whole day.<br />Just couldn't find up what was happening to myself. Just feel like study life is no longer belong to me. I don't even have the mood to start up reading the first paragraph of the notes. Just thinking of giving up all the time. I'm always asking myself, why am I choosing this path? And why am I so easily to give up?<br /><br />My mind keep on thinking Chinese New Year. Ohh..damn, how can I switch on CNY mood before switching on study mood.<br /><br />Okay, at this time, I don't really have any mood to study, all my mind is full of You, You and You..<br />My dear friends, I'm so missing you guys. Can't wait any single minute to meet with you all. Arrhhh...How I wish you all are right in front me and chit chatting with me.<br /><br />Well, PS, please get back to the reality, stop dreaming and get back to your study!! Ganbatte!!You can do it!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8556801684113789697?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-59424460141199014452011-05-27T06:57:00.001-07:002011-08-13T10:06:19.549-07:00一年前就定好的机票，一年后才完成的古晋之旅。就这样，我们七个人去到了一个人生地不熟的美丽城市。从租车，到去每一个景点，都是全靠一张嘴和一张厚厚的脸皮，到处问人，才顺利地进行每一件事。所谓：“路在嘴边”嘛。。哈哈。。当然，整个旅程也遇到了几位热情的朋友相助，回想起来我们还真的很幸运。<br /><br />其实，就算没有认识的朋友领路，自个儿也能在古晋闯得很好。古晋的路很简单走，不怎么容易在这儿迷路。最重要的是要知道每个地点的方向和所在之处。建议大家最好是要有一张比较完整的古晋地图，这样你的旅程肯定很顺畅！^^<br /><br />我想啊，整个旅程最令人难忘的就是到Bako National Park一游了吧。不单单是旅程遥远，就连路程（攀山越岭，爬山涉水的路程）也很遥远啊。艰辛的路程更令人毕生难忘！！不过，真的是完全适合“team building”！！经过一段辛苦+炎热的山路，尽入眼帘的却是超级漂亮的风景！！那一刻的感受真的是难以形容。年轻+喜欢挑战的朋友不妨到此一游吧！我相信肯定难不到你们吧！！因为我们已经挑战过来了！！哈哈！！<br /><br />常听说阿，砂佬越有好多美食哦，很可惜的是我们并没有尝尽。人生漫长，应该还有机会再到这美食天堂去尝尝吧！！有机会的，有机会回的。。。（自我催眠。。）嘻嘻。。<br /><br />其实，要用一篇文章就把几天的旅程说尽还的确有点难，但这一切却深深烙我脑海里，我会把这美好回忆好好的保存着。。<br /><br />朋友们，有机会再一起去旅行吧。。哈哈。。（虽然有时也会有意见分歧的时候，但有些时候也很享受和你们一起游玩的时光）。。哈哈。。。<br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-5942446014119901445?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-39008949119172760852011-05-24T10:00:00.000-07:002011-05-26T07:59:52.825-07:00<div style="text-align: left;">一个没有计划的旅行，背起简单的背包，就往着巴士站走去。人人都觉得我们超强的，哈哈，而我却觉得还好，这就是我想往的背包旅行了。虽然只是三人行，但是我相信，我们会是很好的组合，我们也能行出美好的旅程。。^^</div><br />一路向北，漫长的旅程，思绪不曾停止过。一直很遗憾，才刚刚建立起和系友之间的感情，又告一段落了。一直想要拥有的毕业旅行，也应该不可能会实现。<br /><br />很庆幸的，整个旅程有贵人相助，有志伟同学带我们四处走走，到处吃好吃的，见识特别的，奇怪的槟岛！真的很感谢有他的出现，他的陪伴，让我们的旅程很顺利地进行着。。<br /><br />也很感谢有老大的相助，一个特地从北海开车过来和我们相会，可是却又不会槟岛的路的老大。误打误撞的带我们去了很多旅游指南上所介绍的地方，完全搞笑！！虽然一路上被他亏，被他洗，但我还是比较喜欢这样的相处方式，打打闹闹的才有趣！！所以啊，老大，你千万不要变得正经样，我会很不习惯的哦~~我想说的是，老大啊，你的人还不错好，就是整天想尽办法整我而已。。哈哈。。<br /><br />整个旅程，最让我遗憾的就是，没有一架好的照相机，没办法把这些美好的回忆用照片保存下来。所以啊，这个槟岛之旅还真的让我有一股冲动去买一架DSLR了！还好只是刹那间的冲动。。。<br /><br />槟岛的确是个美丽的小岛，由蔚蓝的天空，有好玩的地方，有好吃的食物，但就是少了一些绿色的植物，清澈的海水，和白晰的沙滩。。。<br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">有人告诉我说，槟岛的天空是最美的，<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px;">但，对我而言，其实啊，只要是</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px;">哪个地方有你我的回忆，那个地方的天空就是最美，最漂亮的~~~</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px;">^^</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-3900894911917276085?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-32588206514821766372011-05-23T21:00:00.000-07:002011-05-26T05:53:00.877-07:00终于，该去的地方都去完了，也是时候好好的休息了。。要回老家 摇着脚吃老米咯。。哈。。<br /><br />还好之前哈比弟强逼我在去古晋前把整个房间收干净，不然我应该很难在短时间内整理好。<br />也还好，要搬回家的东西没有很多，又有屋友协助把东西搬上车，哈，这次回家的心情好不一样啊！！<br /><br />好了，是时候，踏上归途了。去找了她，看到她一身湿，然后整辆车塞满了东西，嗯，应该是说塞满了回忆吧？！心里不禁又感叹了起来。时间真的不留情啊，想当初，我们傻傻的来到了这复杂的城市求学，混了三年，又带着复杂的心情回家了，啊，这就是人生吗？<br /><br />一个愉快的午餐，为我们三年的大学生活正式划上完美句号。希望这并不是我们俩的句号啦，哈！再见啦，老友！就这样我们一人一辆车往南部开去了。<br /><br />这一次，同样的还是一个人开车回家，但那感觉好不同哦。虽然还是会有小担心自己又会在哪儿迷路了，但是，所谓“狮子王永不求伴侣”嘛。。安啦。。我所说的是，想到她也同样地飞驰在南北大道，就会觉得，啊，其实我们并不孤单啊，我们都有互相的陪伴，朝着同个方向前进！！<br /><br />一路上，唱机都静静的，听到的只是汽车飞驰在高速公路的声音。正好，可以让我静静的思考，深深的回忆。一路的想啊，想啊，想，越想就越精神，有些时候还会不禁笑了起来，哈哈，傻了。原来这三年以来我还过得不错快乐啊。嗯，还蛮享受这个人的时光啊！！<br /><br />以后会是怎样还是个未知数呢！！自己到底想往那个方向呢？？不管怎样还是想暂时休息休息。。休息是为了走更长远的路，哈哈。。借口！！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-3258820651482176637?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-86015575141054757292011-05-18T07:46:00.000-07:002011-05-25T20:14:51.783-07:00感叹时间的飞逝，转眼，三年匆匆地过去了。而我，兜兜转转的又要回到这个地方，一个让我觉得安心，窝心，能让我暂时忘却烦恼的小镇。<br /><br />三年里，我，尝尽酸甜苦辣。从从前的那个分数一直高高在上，成绩单布满三角形的同学，变成了成绩单上只画满了圆形和方形的人。终于，我尝到了失败的滋味。原来，它是这样的味道，也只不过如此而已。一开始时，还会一直耿耿于怀，日子久了，也渐渐习惯了，也看开了，成绩好坏也决定不了你的一生，一切还是掌控在自己的手里。就这样，模模糊糊的，我过了三年。虽然成绩只是一般，但，总算，能顺利毕业。<br /><br />三年里，人来人往，真的很感谢每一个在我生命中出现过的人物，哪怕只是一秒也好。<br />很感谢那些带给我欢笑的朋友，你感染了我，你让我也想把这份快乐与他人分享。<br />很感谢常常给我鼓励的朋友，你让我更有勇气面对每一天的挑战。<br />很感谢你，不管发生什么事也无时无刻支持我的朋友，就算是好久不见，你还是让我无时无刻感觉到你的存在。<br />很感谢那些常常与我斗嘴的毒蛇朋友，你让我的日子过得不那么苦闷。<br />很感谢那些常常给我脸色看的朋友，你让我学会如何去容忍，包容和沟通。<br />很感谢那些带给我烦恼的朋友，你让我学会如何去处理烦恼。<br />很感谢每一个你，你，和你，你们每一位都在我的生命中扮演了重要的角色。<br /><br />人家常说，知己难寻，我很庆幸的找到了，而且并不止一个，是很多个。我在不同的阶段遇到的每一个特别的你。我真的很幸运也很幸福。这些日子里，有你陪我一起欢笑，一起做傻事，一起疯狂。也有你在我生气时在我身边默默地的等我气消。也有你让我感觉到读书的压力。无论如何，茫茫人海中能和你们相遇，这是缘分。我会好好收藏这份友谊，我会好好珍惜这份友情。<br /><br />三年的大学生活终究告一段落了，这也象征着人生的另一个旅程碑就要开始了。虽然走了一条一开始并没有很喜欢的道路，但走着走着就走出了感情，我还是一样会朝着你往前走，往前冲！！<br /><br />祝，同学们，前程似锦！！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8601557514105475729?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-78625923647483474732010-01-21T12:27:00.000-08:002010-01-21T14:46:22.656-08:001st year 1st sem 的感觉又回来了。我，到底怎么了？<br />人的精神变革展览，不是我们一直祈求要办的吗？为什么当一切都成定局时，我却感到害怕？<div>在这么紧凑的时间里却要完成一大堆的东西，真得好累。。好累。。<br /><div>很多东西排山倒海的压着我，考试，tutorials,一系列的活动压倒我很辛苦，那喘不过气来的感觉可以不要来找我吗？</div><div><br /></div><div>大家都以为我是因为办展览的关系，所以才会很累，很压力。。</div><div>其实并不是这样的。。</div><div>展览让我开阔眼界，让我接触到更多人，事，物。。</div><div>我的却很享受当中的过程，虽然只是短短的一个星期去筹备。。</div><div><br /></div><div>我的真正压力的来源应该是来自自己。。</div><div>当一切东西一次过涌过来要我处理时，我真得好压力阿！！！</div><div><div>每当开会后回家，看到roomate(也是coursemate)一直很努力的再读书，很努力的在做tutorials,我更是压力。</div><div>要如何疏解压力呢？？我真的不知道。。</div><div>找人谈？？找谁谈好呢？？</div><div><br /></div><div>从小到大，大人们，朋友们都一致认为我是一个很独立的人，开朗性格离不开我，就连我自己也这样认为。每次都是我去关心别人，去照顾别人，但谁来照顾我？坚强的人难道就没有脆弱的一面吗？？找人倾谈，有人会了解吗？我也想找人谈，但有谁是可以信任的吗？我真的很害怕那种人转人的信息。。</div></div><div><br /><br /></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-7862592364748347473?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-33164021963137016792009-06-13T21:50:00.000-07:002009-06-18T03:48:05.982-07:00要忙的总算忙完了。。。<div>曾经一直在问自己参与这次的生活营是不是错误的选择？？</div><div>是自己太得空才去参一脚的，自找苦吃？？</div><div>从一开始就看见他们吵吵闹闹的，到了最后还是在争，真的把我这个局外人吓倒了。。</div><div>谁是谁非我真的不知道，但我真的很想改变他们的处事态度。。。</div><div>他们有些不够经验，不够理智，不够责任感，不够果断，不合作，太傲慢，年纪太小，才造成这样的局面！！大家还不清楚自己的使命在哪？？</div><div>无论如何希望他们能从这次的生活营中成长。。</div><div><br /></div><div>一直都不能释怀直到生活营的最后一天我都还在思考着。</div><div>可能是自己的要求太高了，从小到大参加及搞了无数的生活营，这一次可以算是最差的一次，每一个环节在别人眼中看来是进行到蛮顺利的，但对我来说却是相反的。</div><div>一直一直的在想，看到这样的场面，担当最后一天司仪的我真有想过随随便便的乱讲就算了。。</div><div><br /></div><div>还好最后终于想通了，很多东西是不能拿来作比较的。。。</div><div>营员素质的问题是最头痛的问题，好的在课业方面真的一级棒，坏的就真的坏到不行。。</div><div>对这样的营员我一直存有偏见，对他们感到很反感，觉得他们无药可救了。</div><div>我知道我不应有这样的想法，人总有改变的一天，就看他们的造化了，是变好？还是变得更坏？</div><div>但真心希望他们能拥有真确的信仰，跟着指导，战胜自己，走向幸福的道路。。。</div><div>看到伟宏就是很好的例子，他的却变很多，我应该把从前的他从我的脑海抹走，从新认识他了。</div><div><br /></div><div>虽然搞生活营的过程并不是很顺利，发生一大堆的争执，但青年部们的坚持，最终完成了生活营，为第八本部做出了很大的突破。第八本部的青年部们为广布踏出了第一部是值得鼓舞的。</div><div>所以，很庆幸的自己能参与，一起见证这历史性的一刻，至少我的假期并没有白过。。</div><div>也认识了一些可爱的朋友，一起并肩为广布作战的朋友。。</div><div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style=" ;font-family:宋体;">这两天一夜的活力青年营的顺利完成并不代表一切结束，然而却代表着第八本部的每一位为广布的开始。希望第八本部能通过对话去传达师匠的信息，把幸福的种子撒播出去。</span></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-3316402196313701679?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-5636219116416798262009-06-02T05:26:00.000-07:002009-06-22T02:20:12.779-07:00<div style="text-align: left;">Again i went to genting highland...a place i were so common in....the day i had waited for so long since sem break started...coz i got no place to go n just stayed in the house everyday...so so so bored...everyone is travelling to pulau langkawi, pulau redang, n other places.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div>i were quite excited like a little child..haha...</div><div>anyway, this time would be different one...</div><div>i went to casino...wahahaha...n yet the police could not chase me out anymore...wahaha...</div><div>i never know that i look so young wor...or i look like </div><div>malay??</div><div>the police double checking my ID card n yet still dun believe that i ady reached the age to gamble..</div><div>wakakakaka....feeling so great!!!</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div>how nice my trip???dun knw...</div><div>let the photos proof everything...hehe<span><span></span></span></div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/Sjnfx9sPMwI/AAAAAAAAADI/-6pgJC0BjSk/s320/P1010945.JPG" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348552081945867010" /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>my grandpa...he is going to celebrate his 80 birthday...<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div><img src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/Sjnfxl7KAGI/AAAAAAAAADA/sjetIAq4NlM/s320/P1020048.JPG" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348552075565989986" /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>a nice place which i never been to though i visit to genting every year..</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SjnfxdrdkbI/AAAAAAAAAC4/53624BAefPg/s320/P1020047.JPG" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348552073352679858" /></div><div style="text-align: center;">god bless my grandpa...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/Sjnfw0s4wjI/AAAAAAAAACw/hMHEqDHGpyc/s320/P1010972.JPG" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348552062352802354" /></div><div style="text-align: center;">my cousin n my little bro....they are in the same age...</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SjnfwsYUv2I/AAAAAAAAACo/D-qqfDqFH8o/s320/P1020049.JPG" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348552060119072610" /></div><div style="text-align: center;">family photo...but some ppl are missing...hehe....dun knw where were they going....</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SjnTYEOqXdI/AAAAAAAAACg/yjAZ4Of_O14/s320/P1020041.JPG" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348538442884734418" /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> wat were they doing???.......</span><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div><img src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SjnTXNGriYI/AAAAAAAAACI/zmduV8ofN14/s320/P1010936.JPG" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348538428087306626" style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px; " /></div><div><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>my grandma (on the left) also joined us in the playground...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-563621911641679826?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-41157603109064285472009-05-20T06:31:00.000-07:002009-05-20T07:12:50.284-07:00真的感到很高兴能在Acad M活动。。<br />是你们让我从新回到御本尊的怀抱。。。<br />我忘了自己几时开始没有再出来学会活动。。<br />也不记得昔加末的学会有些什么活动。。<br /><br />直到我进了马大。。。<br />sem 1 时，参了太多uni的活动。。<br />然后常常用为了uni活动很忙，拼命找借口推掉要出来学会活动的心。。<br />真对不起常常叫我出来活动的你们。。。<br />但现在已经了解到时间是由自己来安排的。。。<br />只要有那颗心在，什么事都能迎刃而解的。。。<br />御本尊会给以我们智慧去安排这一切。。。<br /><br />为什么现在我选择在学会活动？<br />因为我真的发现到在学会活动和在外面的活动真的是很不一样。。<br />至少我们是拥有同一颗热忱的心去付出。。。<br />而并不是为了个人利益而争得面红耳赤。。。<br />所以我对自己说过我一定要把握每一次在学会活动的时候。。。<br />尽量去参与每一个学会活动。。。<br /><br />kampar的交流会让我获益不浅。。。<br />至少我知道什么是立正安国论。。。只有用对话才能去改变。。。<br />创价学会的朋友们真是了不起。。。至少大家是心平气和的坐下来谈如何去改变，如何让这个社会更加和平。。如何让大家更加幸福。。<br />而不像外面的一些人为了权力而吵来吵去。。争个没完没了。。<br /><br />我们有我们自己的使命。。。<br />我们要去完成自己的使命。。。<br /><br />感谢御本尊让我回到您的怀抱。。。<br />我不会再与您分开。。<br /><br />最后，要以大家分享一首歌“幸福的道路”。。<br />的却是一首很好听及很有意义的歌。。。<br /><br />你陪着我成长，<br />好让我 看到属于我的光芒，<br />我永远不会忘记，请你相信，<br />所以我献身于广布，<br />要和你跟随着先生的脚步，<br />朝向前方的光芒，就是幸福的道路。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-4115760310906428547?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-13079198309090254282009-04-25T06:09:00.000-07:002009-05-20T06:27:49.211-07:00i sat for my ODE paper today...<br />i dun knw wat had happened to me...<br />i can't answer the 3rd question???<br />but why there are only 3 questions??<br />and each question cost me 20 marks...<br />once i walked out BP..i knw i lost 20 marks dy...<br /><br />i was so DOWN!!!<br /><br />why i made my mind so complicated...??<br />such an easy question,but i dun knw how to do??<br />who controlled my mind???<br /><br />frankly, i really worked hard for tis course..<br />since i failed the mid sem test...<br />i studied hard for it...<br />i did a lot of past year questions...<br />n i knw how to do the past year questions...<br />i read the notes over n over again...<br />i made my own notes...<br />but yet i knw i will fail tis course finally...<br />damn...<br />wat's wrong with me???<br /><br />so,it was reasonable i felt so sad for the whole day...<br />i gv up to study the nex paper...<br />i played comp games...<br />i slept...<br />n i did sth crazy...<br />i walked to varsity lake at the dark nite...<br />i cried...<br /><br />who can help me???<br />nobody....<br /><br />thx to those who consoled me...n accompanied me...n listened to me...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-1307919830909025428?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-50376980822851056572009-03-16T05:35:00.000-07:002009-05-20T06:05:58.986-07:00thanks meishi n yuemin to accompany me to go shopping today...<br />but pls laa..next time dun leave me alone at the shopping centre...<br />i really dun knw wat to do...wat i did was just walked..walked n walked in the shopping centre...<br /><br />at nite...i was staying in the room alone...<br />lastly saier asked me to go for supper...<br />actually felt quite dissapointed when heard the birthday song...the birthday song which is sang to celebrate jun's birthday...<br />i really tot tat u all hd forgotten my birthday...<br />till i saw ah chai n keeyeong hold a little cake n sang birthday song to me...then i received gift...<br />i tot tat's all n it came to the end of my birthday celebration...<br />but no..i was totally wrong...it was just started...<br />oh my god...i was dumped in the kolam...<br />n they helped me to make up..n made me look so ugly..sob...<br />but yet they really made me had a wonderful + unforgetable birthday in my life...<br />really thanx...<br />n thanx for giving lots presents...<br />for me,it were not just gift..it mean a lots to me...<br />friendship last for ever...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-5037698082285105657?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-1704418634533867792009-03-11T10:43:00.000-07:002009-03-11T10:45:40.204-07:00<a href="http://www.quizbox.com/personality/aspx">http://www.quizbox.com/personality/aspx</a><br /><br />Your view on yourself:<br />You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.<br /><br />The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:<br />You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.<br /><br />Your readiness to commit to a relationship:<br />You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.<br /><br />The seriousness of your love:<br />Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.<br /><br />Your views on education<br />Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.<br /><br />The right job for you:<br />You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.<br /><br />How do you view success:<br />You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.<br /><br />What are you most afraid of:<br />You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.<br /><br />Who is your true self:<br />You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-170441863453386779?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-3655924615717336822009-03-01T10:11:00.000-08:002009-03-07T10:19:55.433-08:00遗憾。。。带着期望。。却让我失望。。。<br />鼓，差一点就没得打。。真的伤心。。<br />谢谢学长学姐们在我要放弃的时候一直在我耳边鼓励。。我才有继续撑下去的勇气。。<br />说真的，我真的撑到很辛苦。。。<br />对。。表演过后真的很空虚。。脑袋真的是一片空白的。。<br />以为自己会哭的。。哈。。可是并没有。。<br /><br />frankly,wat's a mix feeling i had after MKC..<br />yup..it cant be denied tat i regretted bcoz of the mishap..<br />i were thinking tat why raining all the time???if no rain,what will happen next?will the whole MKC in plan??everything will be better with the technical setting??there will be best ever perfomances with better lighting n audio??(sob)<br /><br />but i knew no more 'if' here,it was a fate n we need to accept it..well..let bygone be bygone..it was not our false,it was just an unexpected mishap...to sum it all up,everyone did a great job yesterday nite!!!(i mean all seniors n juniors)....MKC really hoseh!!!<br /><br />and i was so so sooooooooo touching yesterday...<br />i really could see the togetherness...not only among CC members but Zabahan...thx for helping us..thx for those alway offer himself to help to move things fr balai zaba to dewan nucleus..<br />thx a lots...and thx for other ethnic group 's frenz who gave me respond all the time while waiting for our frens to set up n prepare evrything for drama...at least u all let me knw tat i was not alone tat time...so pity me n serpin..i was hardly crack my mind to find out sum ideaS to entertain u all...THX A LOTS....<br /><br />well..sth wanna mention here, my dear MKC director,WEI XIANG,i respect u..salute u..even though u did uncountable mistakes during the speech..but u still keep on talking..ur spirit,ur attitude,for sure,i respect u man...i was so touching by u man...almost cry at tat time lor...<br /><br />abt ZHAO KE, i saw the great improvement in urself...well done..i knew u can do it...n 28th of Feb,MKC nite,u proved it to everyone...yes..good job man..be confident in urself laa....<br /><br />abt the other perfomances, everyone was putting his/her effort to do the best he/she can...<br /><br />SHIN YEN roomate,respect u also...continue to dance although u had ald injured...<br />dear mek,u afraid me...so worry abt u..<br /><br />AMY n KAICHUR,take care of urself also rr...<br /><br />abt the seniors, u all did a very good n efficient job man...helped us to do everything, till we dun knw wat should we do anymore...<br /><br />XUE CHEN, u really has a incredible mind ler...huh~~<br /><br />abt my coach,GUORONG n tutors,ROGER n TENGYI , u all are excellent!!!helped us to settle the drums perfomance...i knw u wont make us n urself disappointed de...great!!<br /><br />for those i hvn mentioned,well done n good job man...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-365592461571733682?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-64046109687545614682009-03-01T02:59:00.000-08:002009-03-07T10:03:12.884-08:0028th of FEB (Saturday)<br /><br />马大第七宿舍中华文化之夜，我们期待已久的日子终于来临了。<br /><br />我答应了早上七点半搬鼓，八点练习，我做到了，可是你们为什么迟到？还是谢谢早到的朋友们(jean wei, kaiwen, jinxin n joan)。对不起，我对brothers们发脾气了，我知道大家都很累了，我不应该对你们发脾气，谢谢你们的体谅。<br />谢谢大家的帮忙让我们很快的把事情做好，然后开始练习。<br />大家的表现真的很好了，希望我们今晚能发挥得更好，鼓队加油，要相信我们的努力是值得的。<br /><br />午餐后，肚子开始感到不舒服，我想可能是喝太多咖啡了再加上少睡觉。明知道自己不能喝咖啡，可是爱喝咖啡的我却一口气喝了十杯，人就是这么的犯贱。可恶的感觉，总是要作呕。<br />朋友们，想劝你们要学会好好照顾自己哦，因为在外病了没有人会关心你，照顾你，可怜你，同情你的。。。好好保重哦。。。<br />可是，有时候也会有好人来帮你一把的。谢谢你啦，思彬，慧慧和顺财。<br /><br />呕过了，哭过了，感觉好多了。我可以继续做我还未完成的事了。<br />天气热到我无法睁开我的眼睛，讨厌阴晴不定的天气。<br /><br />谢谢Roger tutor帮我解决搬鼓的事，这样我就少烦一件事了。<br /><br />刚才那么热，为什么你那么快就变脸？<br />求你啦，给我一个好天气啦。<br /><br />你毫不留情，就这样下起了雨，是因为我今天还没唱题吗？？<br />我不是爱哭包，我没哭，只是流泪而以啦。<br /><br />刚才因为很紧张的搬鼓，差一点从白屋滚下来，还好思彬推了一把。谢啦。<br /><br />好，我决定回房唱题和准备。<br />过后雨还是一直下，什么也做不到，只好傻傻的等雨停。<br />我相信雨一定会停，你不可能那么狠心让我们辛辛苦苦筹备了那么久的东西给毁了。<br />所以我一直保持晴朗的心情，相信天气也会跟着晴朗起来的。<br /><br />果然你没有让我失望，雨真的是慢慢的停了。<br />大家的心也快乐了起来，笑容也开始挂在每个人的脸上。<br />大家开始抹干场地，人也陆陆续续的来了，大家也越来越就紧张了。<br /><br />听着司仪欢迎贵宾的到来，掌声也跟着响起。那一刻是多么的感动。<br />听着筹委会主席致词时，我在想着一切的表演很快就要开始了，很快很快。。<br />伟翔的华语讲得不好，可是勇气可嘉，真是让人佩服，虽然讲得很好笑，可是听起来却是令人感动的。<br /><br />开幕过后就到我们出场了，台下一阵喧哗，灯光亮到我看不见人海，很想看看到底有多少人来捧场咯。<br />过后就到扯铃表演，很想知道她们表演到如何，从来就没有真正的欣赏过每一个表演。<br /><br />思彬出场过后就是到我出场了，突然听见思彬说了一句：请大家移到我们的dewan makan。<br />当时的我还不知道雨神已来访，我还真的在台上呆了一会儿才回过神来。<br />真是不敢相信眼前的一切，也不想接受。怎么办？<br />眼泪又要开始掉了，真不挣气。<br />我们要如何继续呢？鼓队怎么办？二十四节令鼓要怎么表演？我的脑一直都在想着鼓。。<br />一定要想个办法，不能让我们的努力白费的。<br /><br />到了dewan nukleus, 我真的没有继续下去的勇气，还好有一直有seniors在鼓励着，谢啦，cc head叫我不要放弃打鼓，一定会想办法让我们打的。还有学谦的支持，我才会一直撑下去。还有思彬，谢谢你提醒了我当时不是泄气的时候，接下去要做的是把任务完成，把其余的表演呈现出来。<br /><br />在他们setup 一切的时候，我们必须想办法撑场咯。<br />那短短的半个小时多是难熬的，我们真的是很懊恼，为什么我们在说话时都没有人在给反应呢？就连自己的seniors都是这样。还好有有一群支持我们的友族朋友们给与热烈的响应。谢谢你们，我真的很感动，感激不尽。<br />还有一些热心的友族朋友帮忙把东西从balai zaba搬到 dewan nukleus。谢啦。<br /><br />很快的一切都setup好啦。我们的戏剧正式开始。<br />一切是多么的顺利，只是麦克风有些问题。<br />舞蹈，华乐，相声等一切都很好，大家辛苦了。<br />只是后台真是很乱，学谦真是了不起，少了你不知会发生什么事咯。<br /><br />戏剧完毕过后就是二十四节令鼓，我连喘一口气都来不及就要开始打鼓。<br />当时真的很紧张，头脑还很乱，乱到不能集中精神，好害怕等等会打错害了大家。<br />最后逼自己冷静下来，集中和专心的打。<br /><br />打完的那一刻，我的脑就是空白的。什么都没想了。<br />只看见3rd years seniors都在哭，是高兴？兴奋？还是感动？<br />我不知道。<br />2nd years seniors对我说：了不起，你们打得比我们还要好！！<br />我在想：真的吗？不要安慰我哦~~<br /><br />过后发生什么事我真的管不了啦，只觉得：哈~~我们准备了五个月的中华文化之夜就在这雨夜画上了句号。我接下来该做什么呢？大家都在很开心的拍照，可我一点都提不起劲来，闷闷的坐着，结果我没拍到照留念，好后悔。为什么我当时会有那种感觉？很空白！很空虚！说不出个所以来。。。<br /><br />泪又在开始流了。糟糕。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-6404610968754561468?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-60412802200878150132009-03-01T02:27:00.000-08:002009-03-07T02:58:56.101-08:0027th of FEB (FRIDAY)<br /><br />oohhh...my hp rang at abt 730am...ooohhh...my dabian lian called me..shit...<br />i wanted to sleep lagi...<br />oohhh..somebody knocked my door...ooohhh...zhongwen came n woke me up....<br />oohhh..my hp rang again....ooohh...ivan called me....<br /><br />ok..fine..i woke up..ok..i went to the practice..ok...<br />roger,i really dun wan to wake up de...but i hv no choice..everyone is missing me so much...<br />damn..it was raining laaa....<br />after i had my breakfast, we started to cut the clothes n settle our scarft n others....<br /><br />since it was still raining..everyone went bec to their room...<br />except me, ahcai, ah fook, n serpin...still playing v the yellow stupid clothes...haa...<br /><br />well..we planned to practice at 1230pm...<br />but sigh..i forgot today is friday..i really dun knw their sembahyang time for today is so long..<br />we only manage to practice once..be4 somebody stopped us bcoz of the curfew...<br /><br />abt 230pm we continue our practice due to the good weather...<br />at 330pm..keeyong stopped us n asked us to go for the rehearsal...<br /><br />everything is well running during the rehearsal...good job...<br />hope everyone could maintain laaa...jia you...<br /><br />damn tired ald...same as yesterday...2am still got band practice lagi..<br /><br />but i promised melissa n sangitha that i sure will go n support the MKI, hehe..so i sacrifice my sleeping time to support them ooo...<br />so funny..i dun understand their language at all...<br />haiz...i should learn other races' language de...<br />but their dances were so powerful n energetic...i felt like wanna dance together v them ald..<br />good job frenz...<br /><br />at abt 1230pm...so sorry yaa..i was so tired ady...i cant stand anymore..i went to meishi's room n slept lor..till hooi hooi wake me up is already 2am lor...sorry for not helping to set up deco wor...<br />i dun knw i will over sleep wor..<br /><br />after practice the huoyuanjia for 1.++ hour....they started to practice qinghuachi...<br />then i went to help ah kent to light up the lanterns lor...<br />damn...i got electric shock twice...<br />the first shock was a small matter...<br />the 2nd shock..ohh my god..my whole left arm lull...<br /><br />but wat i can confirm is ah kent shout louder than me when he got electric shock..haha..<br />he only had the palm lull...but shout like the whole body kena electric shock...huh~~afraid me..<br /><br />again..today i slept at 530am...i enjoyed the time with u all to set up the deco then...<br />haha...<br />suprisingly shinyen wake up ady to practice...<br />the dancers n 'cheling' were so hardworking....<br />salute u all...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-6041280220087815013?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-83868341702144325502009-03-01T02:11:00.000-08:002009-03-07T02:58:20.791-08:0026th of FEB (Thursday)<br /><br />today is MKM a.s.a Malam Kebudayaan Melayu...<br /><br />i planned to go n support our malays frenz tonite..but i was informed tat band members nid to go practice at 1130pm...huh~~my tough life is started...<br /><br />so sorry for not going to support....but my heart is alway supporting u all de...<br />so pls let me sleep for a while...<br />after slept for one hour,shin yen woke me up n asked to go to the practice...<br />i waited for so long..it seems nobody talking abt practice..i was so sien ald...<br />but still waiting there...later js knw fr calvin tat the practice time has been changed to 2am...<br />i was like oooohhhhh,could u pls inform me earlier??i wanna sleep for a while...luckily i dun get angry with anyone..i understand u all...no worries...<br /><br />so i went bec to my room n continue sleeping..haha..<br />wah...practice at 2am ler...wat a new experience ler tat i never hd before n will not have in the future...thx for let me has such a good experience...<br /><br />i quite worry tat we will kena complain lagi...<br />actually im not worry abt us but eric,ah pang, hongsing n ah yap...<br />really felt sorry to u all...<br />i knw everyone is complaining to u all..<br />n thx for settle everything for me...<br /><br />well..we ended our practice at 530am...<br />i hv to sleep lor...<br />even though three of us can skip the morning slot of practice...<br />but i think i wont have enough sleep de laa..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8386834170214432550?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-25965467958573080002009-02-24T01:28:00.000-08:002009-03-07T01:46:21.555-08:00Meyi…thx for supporting my decision n encourage me not to gv up…<br /><br />Serpin…thx rr…u r the one who sms me n encourage me not to gv up…<br />But sorry for making u disappointed in tis morning n afternoon practice…<br />I dun mean to hurt u…<br /><br />Keeyong…thx for the meaningful mesej…<br /><br />Papa…thx also…after chatting v u tat nite..i knw I wont gv up de…as wat u said, I hd worked so hard for it..still left only few days…everything will be fine after tis few days….<br /><br />Chong heng-thx also rr…I knw prinsip cant earn money laaa…I dun care abt prinsip anymore…it’s all abt myself laa…<br /><br />Lastly-special thx to my dear jiao lian…<br />I was ashamed to see act…but no choice…we met at IS is all bcoz fate…<br />I dunno wat had u heard… U r so understanding… u never ask me for the reason for not attending the morning n afternoon practice…<br />but u jst only ask abt the drumsticks…n asked me to have a rest…<br /><br />I still remembered tat I asked u tat : r u sure tat I still will help them to buy the drumsticks n evrythings???<br />Ur ans is : yes, sure u will…confirm…<br /><br />Thx for the ans…bcoz of the ans…I decided to return bec to the team…no matter wat…I will be bec…I wont make everyone who care abt me disappointed…thx you very much…thx for so confident n believe in me…<br /><br />yes…I was so gila abt drums(meishi n yuemin knw abt tis)<br />Even I din go for the practice, but I still keep on asking hooihooi n haocheak tat wat had happened during the practice…still thinking of drums every single minutes…<br /><br />Well..i will tell u the reason I get angry tat day if u want 2 knw…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-2596546795857308000?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-83355563757760458892009-02-23T01:27:00.000-08:002009-03-07T01:28:20.464-08:00I wake up very early in the morning today…<br />I manage to hv my breakfast n also dapao breakfast for shinyen..<br /><br />After tat..i quickly go bec to my room to rush my presentation slides…<br />I was so bad..today is the evaluation day for GTEE 1104…it is 30% of tis course…<br />But I hvn started to do my slides…it’s all my bad…<br /><br />Luckily I manage to finish it b4 1pm..when I want to hv my lunch at dewan makan,my laptop suddenly switch off itself…damn…@#$%^^&amp;*…<br />I quickly restart my laptop,luckily it autosave ald…huh~~~sweating at tat time…<br />So, I keep on doing my slides, inserting some pictures n effects to my slide till I miss the lunch…<br /><br />Almost to 3pm..meishi n I quickly rush to the ODE tutorial…we were late…but Mr Kuru din say anything yet…we past our one hour tutorial by doing nth..haha..<br /><br />After that, we moved KDK to continue doing slides n prepare for the test later…<br /><br />Bcoz our class got so many ppl…the evaluation took us more than 3 hours lor…<br />So we finished our class at 815pm…I immediately rush bec to college coz I got drums practice at 830pm…reached college at 830pm..<br /><br />After change my cloth, I rush to balai zaba as fast as I can…I miss my dinner again..<br />But still I were late to the practice 5 minutes…there r only 5 ppl there…(jinxin,joan,kaiwen,mabel n zhongwen)..thx for coming so early..<br />I was so blur tat time…somebody told me tat coach n tutors were there ald…but I really couldn’t see anyone in dark…I dunno wat happen to my eyes…act everything I saw was blur images…<br /><br />Coach n tutors left 6 of us without saying anything..question mark??<br /><br />Everyone came at 9pm..we moved our drums to tennis court, n started to practice..<br />And I went to lobby to find coach n tutors..tengyi told me guorong get angry ald..i was shivering tat time..i wondered why always me kena???really wat the…..<br /><br />Well..later I saw the most terrible things…they keep on scolding..keeping on saying rude words..OMG…but it’s ok…I understand ur feeling de…<br /><br />Me myself also get angry then…there r still got some selfish ppl there…wat a discussion???for wat???get no result discussion????<br /><br />I was so so so bad temper. someone made me so angry but nobody support me tat time…u r not layak to say such thing to me!!well I bear him…I told some of them I will quit the team…I was so stupid for saying so stupid word…I was so stupid to get angry v such ppl..it’s not worth at all…<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8335556375776045889?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-35502279154295489142009-02-21T01:50:00.000-08:002009-03-07T02:02:25.261-08:00thx god...today is not the MKC nite..luckily MKC has changed the date to 28th of Feb...<br />it was raining cat n dog...huh~~terrible~~~i could not imagine tat if today were MKC..wat will happen???<br /><br />Less rehearsal..<br />Deco part hvn done...<br />No booklet....<br />Invitation cards hvn sent out....<br />No VIP....<br />Gimik hvn done...<br />dancers hvn practice for their 2nd dance..<br />Drama still not hv full rehearsal...<br />No background music...<br />No multimedia...<br />No lighting n audio...<br />Acher never practice for their part...<br />No drums....<br />No drumsticks....<br />the drums perfomance still not satisfy...<br />No audiences....<br /><br />huh~~a lot of things hvn done....<br />thx god...today is not MKC...<br />today is only rehearsal...<br />we still have one week time to prepare for all those things...<br />hey ppl....let's jia you together....gambateh...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-3550227915429548914?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-81962350789037236932009-02-20T02:02:00.000-08:002009-03-07T02:11:25.305-08:00this is the 1st time i went to studio....<br />thx for giving me tis chance...<br /><br />but i was so scared to co-operate v u all...<br />since u all r so expert in music..i was js like a beginner...<br />knw nth abt music...even sometime played the wrong tempo...<br />so sorry that i spoilt the songs rr....<br />make u all nid to repeat n repeat to play the song again n again...<br />so sorry....<br />i really dun knw abt music though i luv to listen songs...<br /><br />i could not relax myself act since u all keep on asking us to relax n enjoy the time in the studio...<br /><br />thx guorong n tengyi who guide us to play the songs...<br /><br />thx lesley, ming cher, kesin, n jun who alway encourage us...n never blame me for playing such a lousy music...huh~~~<br /><br />thx whoever support us all the time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8196235078903723693?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-57791009221210461752009-02-15T16:01:00.000-08:002009-03-07T01:27:14.415-08:00we have drums practice like usual...<br />i woke up at 8am in the morning..ooo...after i hd my breakfast..went to balai zaba like usual...<br />some ppl still late to the practice like usual...everything like usual...<br />till the end of the morning slot...coach suddenly asked me to make sure everyone to come to practice in the afternoon slot...<br /><br />i wondered why...<br />but then i forgot what i hd done fr 12pm till 2pm...<br />i think i was doing my hubungan etnik slide tat time laa...<br /><br />it came to the time 2pm...<br />everyone came....coach came....tutors came...full attendance...<br />but sth made me so curious...why suddenly got so many seniors came???they knw sth will happen,izzit????<br /><br />all rite...coach started to talk...<br />everyone was looking at us...<br />i hate such atmosphere...so serious...<br />of course they were talking abt sth serious ..<br />they said tat we dun respect them…huh~~~(when rr??where got??big question mark in my mind??)..but later I discovered sth unexpected…n I realise y they want to hv such a special sharing session…<br /><br />all rite..everyone was starting to talk....<br />some even started to argue..luckily no quarreling...<br /><br />i really dun wan to talk laaa...bcoz i was thinking tat even i voiced out..they also wont change de….<br />but i knw someone really wish tat i will talk lor...no worries..i wont make u disappointed de...since u r so so sooo supporting me from the beginning till now....really luv u laa...sometime really felt sorry to u, get angry v u, being not polite to u...i knw i was so childish...thx for understanding me n still giving support to me...u really pandai psycho lor...haha...<br /><br />damn...once i started to talk..the atmosphere was so quiet...<br />i was so useless...talked not even one sentence n my tears started to drop down...<br />oh my god...i cried till non stop..i wondered how can i continue to talk ler..<br />i took quite a long time to calm down n continue to talk...funny...<br /><br />since then...i was called 'ai ku bao' by bro...shit...<br />tell u all rr...7th CC really dun hv secret de ler...the news spread very fast till everyone knw tat i cried on tat day...oohhh...no face ald...<br />somebody buy me a mask??? i want a mask.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-5779100922121046175?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-51856657141977722322009-02-14T23:42:00.000-08:002009-03-07T00:01:27.539-08:00wahaha...dun expect anything will happen to me today...<br />it's nth happen ok...<br />sorry for making u all disappointed...hehe...<br /><br />well..but i got received some dedications wor...<br /><br />thx for those who dedicate bear n roses to me...<br /><br />1stly...thx to my ex-4am club president-Mr Gregory...thx for giving me 3 beautiful roses...<br />2ndly...thx to my lovely papa-Mr Pang Kim Choon...thx for giving me sweet chocolates...<br />3rd...thx to my best ever jiao lian- Mr Jong Kuet Yong...thx for giving ur roomate-Bear..haha<br />4th...thx to my suigong-Mr Christopher..thx for giving me a lovely bear bear also...<br />lastly...thx to my 'da bian lian'- Mr Quek Ser Pin...thx for giving hand made roses..it was so beautiful..luv it very much....<br /><br />yeah~~~jiao lian...thx for free us for today...but i dunno wat could i do today...sigh..nth to do...really hope tat we got practice today..so that i wont feel so lonely...<br />wat's a boring day i hd!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-5185665714197772232?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-23241751598660610472009-02-13T23:23:00.000-08:002009-03-06T23:42:22.153-08:00yeah~~~it should be a happy friday...the day be4 valentine day...<br /><br />after we (me n haocheak) practiced for the huoyuanjia...my soigong(chris) asked me to accompany him to find the sponsor at ....(forgot where is the place ald) haha...<br />we searched for shop crazily..haha...<br />when we found the shop..wow~~so happy..<br />sigh..the boss was not in....actually i was so curious tat time...the name of the shop is THE BAKERY NEVER SLEEP...i walked around the shop n have a look...an ordinary n classic shop...which sell only muffin n some breads...<br /><br />since our mission failed...we decided to walk away...chris suggested to watch movie since it was still early for me to go practice at 830pm...whose knw the curious case of benjamin button took my time for almost 2hours n 45 minutes...i was late to the practice n i got informed our jiaolian...<br /><br />thx karen n theresa who fetched us bec fr mid valley...<br /><br />once i reached balai zaba...team members were practicing themselves..i felt so sorry to them...but somebody asked:'where is our coach or tutors?'....i was afraid...i wondered wat hd happened...lastly tengyi came n teached...<br /><br />i still dunno wat happened till then...it came to the end of the practice tat day...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-2324175159866061047?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-82997691434371817692009-02-09T22:37:00.000-08:002009-03-06T23:03:53.544-08:00is the same day v the trip to pulau carey actually...<br /><br />after the trip to pulau carey..we reached college at abt 300pm...but we(few ppl only laa-guorong, ah fook, ah pang, serpin, ivan n me) immediately hv to rush to seremban to return the drums...everyone were very exhausted tat time...huh~~<br /><br />thx sai er for lending me ur car...<br />thx everyone who helped me n accompanied me to seremban to return the drums...<br />luv u all...thx you very much...<br /><br />sai er, so sorry... i dun mean to tell lie actually...but guorong really tired at tat time...immediately i helped him to drive..he felt asleep unconciously...im serious...tat is really a great challenge to me...myself also felt very exhausted..but wat to do...??all the ppl in the car felt asleep..i was driving alone n following the slow speed lorry...i dunno why the lorry driver drove so slow...huh~~~and all of tat is our decision...so pls dun get angry v guorong or ivan...i dun mind if u get angry v me...again,sorry...<br /><br />well..we reached college at 700pm...n so sorry to MT n the other cc members...we were late to rehearsal...as fast as i can,i quickly took my bath n came down to the rehearsal ald...<br /><br />well,i took over liwei part to be the mc...but i js felt tat day rehearsal js like a mess...wat the...<br />nobody told me tat we only rehearsal for 4 chapters of the drama...it reached the rehearsal for the 24 season drums,i dunno why everyone was laughing at us...i js felt i was like a stupid standing in front...hate the feeling...<br /><br />it came to the post mortem of the rehearsal...may b i was so emotional tat time...i js felt like everyone was shooting me..laughing at me...felt like wanna cry tat time...i almost collapsed tat time...luckily later i realise tat i was not alone...i still hv bro n sis alway by my side to support me...thx...<br /><br />yaa..so sorry to my family members, i knw u all came to coll to find me to hv a meet today...but so sorry i cant make it...i did tell lie to u all...i said tat i was not in the coll...yes tat is truth..but do u all knw tat i was driving to seremban tat time..i din tell u all..bcoz i scared u all worried abt me...bcoz of tis, i was crying non stop after tat...homesick***<br /><br />nobody could understand my feeling tat day...being so sad,tired,being misunderstood by others,being shoot,being blame..................................sob......<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8299769143437181769?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-40490604872008339562009-02-09T22:10:00.000-08:002009-03-06T22:37:51.195-08:00<div><div><div>today is the day i hd waited for...</div><div>i was so worried abt our perfomance today..</div><div>ppl spent abt rm900 to help us to get the drums, they provided a really good opportunity for us to perform..thx man..thx chaiming..</div><br /><div>thx my team members also...practiced hard the whole week for today perfomance...u all really put ur great effort...though some of u still din gv good commitment...</div><br /><div>thx our guorong jiao lian, roger tutor n tengyi tutor....</div><br /><div>everyone, guorong really wish that we could grab such a good chance to perform...but we dissapointed him during the CNY...i knw he felt dissapointed tat time..even myself also felt dissapointed...we kept on contacting each other during the CNY to discuss whether wanna go n perform o not...but lastly we rejected...</div><br /><div>today is the day..the day to perform..though u all said we hvn reached even 60% to perform on MKC nite...</div><div>dissapointed again...yes..i did mistakes...so sorry...</div><br /><div>frenz will console u....</div><div>but best frenz will let u knw ur weakness..thx meishi n yuemin let me knw tat we did a really lousy perfomance...</div><br /><div>it's come to the end of the celebration of CNY together v aborigin..we grabbed the chnace to visit to the aborigin's village...suprisingly we saw a lot of handmade souveniers there...</div><br /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310330508909351266" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SbIVdmd2EWI/AAAAAAAAAB4/MFh_h-GYvHQ/s320/DSC02938.JPG" border="0" /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310330500539387026" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SbIVdHSSjJI/AAAAAAAAABw/j57oR6upSeA/s320/DSC02916.JPG" border="0" /><br /><div></div><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5310330496946363010" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SbIVc55pWoI/AAAAAAAAABo/qUPDjAryawI/s320/DSC02899.JPG" border="0" /><br /><br /><br /><div></div><br /><br /><br /><div> </div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-4049060487200833956?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-49218672768415434402009-02-04T23:03:00.000-08:002009-03-06T23:23:19.523-08:00well...we js made a decision yesterday..tat is we want to perform on tis coming sunday at pulau carey...<br /><br />tis lead to i hv to settle another stuff...yeah..we nid to get drums from seremban...<br /><br />peck har called me at 1030am...asked me to prepare everything to get the drums...well..we nid ppl to get the drums...but sigh..i keep on calling my team members since 1030am for almost 1 hour n 30 minutes...lastly i js managed to find 2 ppl to help me....i was so 'pek chek' tat time...really want to say <a href="mailto:!@%20#">!@ # $ # %</a>^&amp;*()_+ words tat time...luckily once i called keeyong...he quickly helped me to find ppl...i got the ans tat FPP ppl wanna skip class to help me...huh~~~so touching man...wow~~~<br /><br />thx chaiming who offered the opportunity..<br />thx peck har n chaiming who helped to contact the drums' owner...<br />thx sai er who lend me ur car..<br />thx guorong jiao lian who drove the car...<br />thx guorong, zhaoke,keeyong,haocheak,ivan,n director-weixiang who accompanied me to get the drums)....<br />thx those who helped me to take drums to the balai zaba when we arrived...<br /><br />it was really great experience for me...thx chaiming..without u..i would never hd such experience..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-4921867276841543440?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-21874929795985949952009-02-02T21:29:00.000-08:002009-03-07T01:49:17.033-08:00After having breakfast v papa n yuemin,we are going bec to our hometown...<br />thx papa n popo for treating us the breakfast...even though popo u din join us to hv the breakfast..haha..<br /><br />thx papa for showing me the way bec...luv u so much...u r so care abt us...so touching man...<br /><br />we reached segamat after one hour then...<br /><br />after i dropped down ah mian..i rushed to kfc to join the gathering...but sigh i was like made the gathering so unhappy...so sorry...i dun mean to do like tis...i was really busy answering call tat time...i dun mean to hold the hp all the photo session...sorry~~~~~<br /><br />At nite~~actually i dun plan to visit to frenz' house anymore...<br />but lastly..yes i did go....<br />so sorry again...i was busy calling n sms-ing...<br />but could u pls dun blame me n understand me???i really felt hard to explain to u all...<br />i think the best is to go bec home at tat time...but whose knw i made a wrong decision ald..it made us almost quarrel...i tried to control my bad temper...sorry for making so unhappy atmosphere...who can understand???could somebody tell me wat to do???<br /><br />i was so regretted...i din take any photos v u all...since then we din meet anymore...<br />n we were bec to respective uni n hv our own life....sob...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-2187492979598594995?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-20650212542756792412009-02-01T20:52:00.000-08:002009-03-06T21:29:31.234-08:00yeah~~~finally the day i had waited for so long came...<br />i waited today from the day be4 CNY(the day we ate reunion dinner)...<br /><br />although i told everyone in coll tat i was so happy bcoz of CNY..but the fact is i was not happy at all actually..i even hate CNY...i hate cookies..i hate gaseous drinks..i hate beer..(but i drank a lots of beer n alcohol during CNY)i hate to play v frenz till midnite...i hate to serve the guests...i hate to visit around the relatives' house...really tired u knw...somehow i dun knw how to address them..it was so complicated...but wat to do???it was the routine things i nid to do in every CNY...<br /><br />Well..today we r going to muar to visit our college's frenz....i fetched feimian at ioi...n we started our journey at ard 9am...it was so unexpected,we reached meyi's house at 10am..huh~~~was i drove too fast rr??? dun knw ler...<br /><br />haiz..we waited for the others to reach at meyi's house...finally ahsiong,ah pang, kyong n mingcher reached at 1130am...hoho..yeah..we started our journey to 'bainian'..ah siong be our tour guide...<br />the list below is the ppl who we hd visited :<br />1. Meyi<br />2. Yan Ling<br />3. Yue Min<br />4. Hui Ying<br />5. Ah Pang<br />6. Wei Wei<br />7. Ah Siong<br /><br />(ladies n gentlemen, next time u all must visit to huiying's house ooo...her house is fulled of delicious food...some food r even from overseas ooo....)<br /><br />yeah~~~we ate a lot of food today..if penang is the paradise of food...then muar can also be considered as the 2nd paradise of food also..hoho...<br />we enjoyed the lunch n dinner here..haha...<br />thx everyone...<br />(thx ah siong,lovely papa,meyi,weiwei,dawn ying,yuemin,keeyong,mingcher n ah mian)...<br />thx for making my fourth day of CNY so memorable...i luv u all so much...<br /><br />special thx to yuemin...let us slept at ur house...thx rrr...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-2065021254275679241?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-62280970922369898592009-01-09T02:00:00.000-08:002009-01-24T00:26:10.427-08:00Today is the day we all waited for so long...Why???this is the day for those ppl to make decision whether to quit or stay in the team...but you...you told me that you are so confident to convince them,to persuade them to stay in the team...you said you have at least 70% to success...but why..why i cant get your points tonite ??i cant even knw what are the points you gave...what i knew was you want to continue the spirit from the ex-seniors...because they helped you all a lots..and now is the time for you to help us - juniors in return...is it a strong point???i dun really know...may be...<br /><br />Oh my dear coach,why don't you make everything clear??do you know that you haven't solve the problems??the problems are still...and yet there are annoying and irritating!!Oh my goodness...could you please don't alway say depends?or see the situation laa??do you knw that, you really make me suffer laaa....i'm sorry to say that if i were you..im absolutely will let all of them know everything..i totally will let them knw the drum practice's timetable,so that they can manage their time well... i want to let them knw how tough is the practice...i want each of them understand what is their responsibilities...but haiz...it's fine...<br /><br />Frankly...till now...i dun even knw how importance is the mkc???what is the purpose we need to organize mkc???for what???i really dun knw!!i'm sorry to say about this...at first,i thought mkc is the programme for us -juniors and seniors to enclose the relationship among us..but then i realise that i was wrong...because it is the activity for us to break the relationship!!!what is the vision and mission of doing this programme???i wonder..again..cc is like my another home???sigh...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-6228097092236989859?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-61290493588946495662009-01-05T20:21:00.000-08:002009-01-20T04:10:46.953-08:00It's the 2nd week of 2nd sem...im so energetic to attend to every class..may be i had enough rest in the past one week holiday..i think...huh~~~i hope that i could keep such spirit,i really don't want to repeat what i had done in the 1st sem..'it was a nightmare for me!!i don't want such stupid and hectic life anymore...i just wanna have more time for me to rest,study,and sleep!!can i???<br /><br />Well,i had sms all the drum teammates to come to adin room tonite to have a practice, purposely for them to recall bec wat we had learnt during the break...<br />Really thank to those who came for practicing...i really appreciate you all...<br />And of course there is alway got some problems for me to solve...haiz...but this time,i think it is a big big problem for me...I really don't understand why both of u want to quit??All rite,i could accept that the reasons you gave...but what to do???you chose to join us at 1st,and promise me not to quit the team...but you break your promise now...why???why???i feel so sad,tired,exchausted,and dissapointed...I'm sorry to say that i really cant control myself at that time...i lost my direction..i don't know what to do...really!!!<br /><br />Anyway,i apologize if i hurt you all unconciously and i apologize for my bad attitude on that night too...even to my drum teammates,my dear friends and seniors...im so sorry...<br /><br />i will keep on trying, do my best and never give up..!!for sure....!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-6129049358894649566?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-72017939745744928112009-01-01T04:35:00.000-08:002009-03-06T20:45:01.332-08:00huh...it was the 1st time i went to countdown...wat's a great experience gained...actually i was thinking for so long whether want to go o not...but at last i went together with meishi,eric n yuemin...<br /><br /><br /><br />It rained for a while before we started to go...unluckily,at the um bus stop,we met those qzh-ians...walau,so paiseh to meet them there since we refused to join them to go to countdown...<br /><br />anyway im so sorry...<br /><br /><br /><br />we reached sungai wang at around 7++pm...and we had our dinner at kfc inside the sungai wang...i was so fulled to finished my meal...huh~~<br /><br />After tat, we accompanied eric to go aroung sg wang becoz he wanted to search for new clothes for CNY...hehehe..lastly he bought one...<br /><br />we met jianhau n the other ex-seniors later...we were enjoying the concert there..but sigh..the place was crowded by ppl...i could breathe hardly...huh~~~it made me almost die...we were lack of oxigen while they crowd were playing the spray...huh~~~hate the stupid smell...<br /><br />At ard 12am..everyone bcame damn crazy...spraying around...we were also the victims laaa...i even shoot by the water pistol..shit!!...tat was all jian hau n eric's false...ooohhh....i was so wet ...<br /><br />After countdown we quickly walked to the LRT station,huh~~it was crowded by ppl too...damn terrible...luckily we were still able to go bec college at 2am..haha...<br /><p>But then we went to the ss17 to yumcha...till 4am...huh~~we were exhausted n felt very sleepy...</p><p> </p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-7201793974574492811?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-48934199826413053662008-10-21T23:21:00.000-07:002009-01-09T00:12:06.100-08:00很累很累。。真的很累。。很想一睡不起。。这样什么都不必去理会了。。哈。。不想去开会的心理在作怪。。心理真的很不平衡。。没人能理解的。。但有能怎样呢？？？谁叫我就是组长呢??是我的错吗？我想应该是吧...哈。。很烦恼哦。。。<br /><br />我也知道一定会有这样的事情发生的。。但并没有想到这么快发生而已。。。是我太天真了。。<br />要全部人到齐一个会议的确很难。。毕竟大家都有自己的想法及活动，大家都有选择的余地。。也并不是大家都是真心的为了搞好mkc而来的。。。so do I..<br /><br />是不是大家都还不熟练呢?不敢把问题都摊开来讲？？诺是你们不能出席会议请你们在会议时提出来。。我们在谈谈吧。。你们这样不告诉我就直接找教练谈会令我遭殃的叻。。害我无端端收到短信又不知道发生什么事情。。还真的有点莫名其妙。。有点无奈。。也有点沮丧。。不过也算。。不想跟他解释那么多。。解释只是会越描越黑的。。他认为是这样就这样吧。。我无所谓。。<br /><br />二十四节令鼓并没有想像中的好玩。。身为组长更加不好玩。。我后悔了。。我想。。。。。。<br />但既然是自己的选择的就应该由自己来承担。。。加油拉大家！！<br />我相信自己会做到最好的。。。我相信我自己。。希望你们也相信我咯。。。<br /><br /><br />与大家共勉之：<br />“改变念头，动手去做你最害怕的事，恐惧就会消失。。<br />的确，当我们遇到不利自己的处境，只要我们改变自己原先想逃避的心境，勇敢地去面对，那么就不难发现，自己目前的处境，其实并没有想象中的糟糕。。”<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-4893419982641305366?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-80589587288868514462008-09-30T22:21:00.000-07:002009-01-19T20:20:39.611-08:00闷闷不乐了那么多天，使时候放松心情一下。。。所以就跟随了cc这个大家庭去海边玩玩渡假。<br />原本也没抱多大的希望这个cc trip 会多好玩。。不过，也真没让我失望啊。。。的确是蛮好玩的。。谢谢你们咯。。<br /><br />这三天两夜的trip，真的让我获益不浅啊。。。但我个人觉得这个trip的宗旨与目标并没有达成。。。我根本就没有看到有哪些人是没有分辈分的在交流着。。。seniors还是跟会seniors的在沟通。。而我们这些juniors也有自己的世界。。。就算有，大家也只是被框在自己的小组内交流而已。。。所以。。哈哈。。有好一些人我都还不是很认识咯。。。应该是说我根本就不认识。。但我觉得这些都应该是来自个人的问题。。毕竟cc 只是一个平台让我们去接触与认识更多人吧了。。。一切还得靠自己吧。。。加油咯大家！！<br /><br />CC 是否是我们的另一个家？？？我不晓得。。但确定的是一些seniors真的帮了我很多很多。。谢谢你们哦。。。也很高兴认识你们。。希望在未来的日子里我们都还会保持联络。。。<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-8058958728886851446?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-40015950097027976522008-09-25T22:51:00.000-07:002009-01-08T23:21:29.038-08:00I really fallen ill after came bec from bukit tinggi...we hd travelled for a very long n stupid journey to go bec...till i hd headache n feeling bad...actually i hd ald fallen sick on the 1st day we went to bukit tinggi...tq to those who always care of me...10q very much...<br /><br />btw,we hd sucessful organised QZH3 camp at sjk(c) bukit tinggi...but we faced a lot of obstacles...huh~~~till then,i found tat it is really hard to well organised a camp....<br /><br />Mon, i hvn recovered from sick...still got fever...the sub probability result was announced n i got a very poor result...i was feeling so down...wanna to cry???i hv no tears...at noon,we hd APK meeting, n i din go down...sorry yaa to my team members, i really sick n felt asleep until i miss up the meeting...i was not intent to do so...at nite..there was a CC meeting which took most of my free time...i hate the meeting,i hate those who waste my golden time...after meeting,i hate those who do not believe in me...they dun understand me...who keep on blaming me din go to the APK meeting...even i hd explained,still they chose to not believe me....i was totally hurt by u all...is this wat we call 'friend'????im so hurt,u knw???i could not wait anymore,i walked as quickly as i can to go bec to my room to cry...i scared ppl see my ugly crying face...T.T<br />(So,for those who hd read my blog,u should know tat im not get angry with certain ppl only...)<br /><br />i was simply feeling down the whole week...i dunno why...i totally lose myself...im not mine anymore...i was not the easy going gal anymore,i can't smile anymore...u could hardly find smile on my face...my smile was so fake,i know...i dun wan to see any ppl...so i chose not to go to dewan makan the whole week...i din eat rice for the whole week...i was very suffer...really really really suffer!!!!!!i hate..i hate..i hate..i hate...i HATE everything!!!i HATE my uni life!!so tiring n irritating!!so stressful!!<strong>i HATE myself for being a stupid</strong> <strong>ppl, for being a foolish, for being a failure!!!!!</strong>who can understand me??sometimes i even think to escape from the 7th residential college...can i???i tried to sms my best frenz but she din reply me...so sad..r u very busy v u assignment??im helpless..simply wan to express my feeling to u...i knw,i shouldn't being selfish to disturb u since we hv our own life now..i'm so sorry...<br /><br />i knw,some of u are really willing to listen to me...but im so sorry, i won't easily let ppl knw abt my things...i really want to speak up to u,bt at last i gave up to do so...i really scared tat if i tell my problems to anyone of u, then the others will knw it too...i got such experiences be4,i really really scared the feeling betrayed by ppl...so sorry yaa,cafelyn n my big hand-gareth.....<br /><br />but anyway i would like to thank to my club advisor who always share meaningful stories with me...i loves ur stories...sometimes the stories were very touching....seriously,i love them very much....<br />thank to my "sui gong" also...thank for accompanying me for the whole nite...hope we all can solve our problems very soon...have a new start soon....<br />thank to my dear friends - meishi n yuemin...thanks for listening to me always...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-4001595009702797652?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-50171066368661429552008-09-15T21:33:00.000-07:002008-10-03T22:46:45.653-07:00I forgot how long i hv been not celebrate for the mooncake festival...since form 4?i really can't recall bec...since u passed away??i dun knw...im not sure...i still remembered tat we hd a barbeque party for every single occasions tat we celebrated be4...we gathered together,we played around,we talked for the whole nite till morning...but now..no more...u left us forever...bt still u r alway on my mind...<br /><br />2day, 14th of sept, we-4am club and supper nite club hd a small monncake festival celebration at Gazebo(pondok in 7th residential college)...yaa...we invited some of the friends n seniors to join,but still academic is more important,they rather study hard in the room than joining us to celebrate mooncake festival..only few seniors came n join us...i wonder will they forget their role as a chinese one day?? thank you to those who light up my small celebration...hehe...i seriously hd fun tat nite...<br /><br />we sat together,we talked together, seniors shared their experiences v us...n we also sang songs together...we recalled bec our minggun haluansiswa theme song-Gemuruh...where 3rd seniors taught us their theme song too-jalinan...huh...i simply like tis song very much....n last but not least our CC song n Talent's nite theme song-小手拉大手....again,i feel CC like my another home???<br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253169031497855746" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBZtODMwI/AAAAAAAAAA4/7Tcd_U5Tggw/s320/140920081941.jpg" border="0" /> haha...dear ah boy...joel n me...<br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBZljkIdI/AAAAAAAAABA/I3L9tadIggY/s1600-h/140920081957.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253169029440610770" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBZljkIdI/AAAAAAAAABA/I3L9tadIggY/s320/140920081957.jpg" border="0" /></a> dear 4am club n supper nite club-ah greg, me, caan ee, yuemin, meishi, n sai er....<br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBZwrhGsI/AAAAAAAAABI/lfE75E4YNIg/s1600-h/DSC02153.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253169032426756802" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBZwrhGsI/AAAAAAAAABI/lfE75E4YNIg/s320/DSC02153.JPG" border="0" /></a> my dear big hand-karwai...who really takes care of me...10q so much....<br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBaFnLYgI/AAAAAAAAABQ/4CoR-RZKVW8/s1600-h/IMG_1785.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253169038045700610" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOcBaFnLYgI/AAAAAAAAABQ/4CoR-RZKVW8/s320/IMG_1785.jpg" border="0" /></a> yeah~~we celebrated mooncake festival together....10q for giving me a happy nite....<br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253160187106320210" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CZi5Yh2_Mk4/SOb5W5SyX1I/AAAAAAAAAAw/wLbFGEYP6kU/s320/140920081940.jpg" border="0" /> hehe...we made the gazebo become a very romantic place....haha..<br /><p></p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-5017106636866142955?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-31434776714225827092008-08-21T20:52:00.000-07:002008-10-03T21:31:27.354-07:00参加完了aiesec的xcapade，接下来的这个星期的mid sem break我都送给了全中华3。。。<br /><br />首先，我们这些筹委都参加了在武吉丁宜的培训营。。。虽然人数很少但我们大家都玩得很高兴。。。我也从中学习到很多很多。。。谢谢你们让我更加认识马大华文学会。。。让我更加认识华教历史。。。从中唤醒我对华教的热忱。。。想为华社做出更加多的贡献。。。<br />想当初我参加全中华是纯粹因为我喜欢生活营和我想认识更加多的朋友。。。可是，培训营过后我已经有所改观。。。真的是单纯为了华社，为了我们的后代。。。<br /><br />经过了中马分站，我可以更加确定我们一起为华教而努力的那颗心。。。回想从前我就是那个因为校方不让我们读华文而哭泣的小孩。。。我们想尽方法去争取读华文的机会，最后还闹到督学那儿。。还好，最终我们还是争取到了。。。谢谢那些曾经对我们伸出援手的大人物。。。非常谢谢你们。。。所以我一直都在告诉自己一定要帮帮其他人。。。他们何尝不是也像我们一样，为了学校没有华文学会而懊恼。。。华教真的是我们华人的根啊！！！没有了根我们能生存吗？？？我们还是华人吗???所以我们要想尽办法来保住我们的根！！真的！！<br /><br />好啦。。最后。。全中华3加油！！！<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-3143477671422582709?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-21912559086050409312008-08-18T20:42:00.000-07:002008-10-03T20:47:13.188-07:00I hd a lot to talk abt the Xcapade actually from the 1st day till the last day..i was really enjoyed..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-2191255908605040931?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-9338597439540479132008-08-15T20:09:00.000-07:002008-10-03T20:52:50.843-07:00Finally,the day we are all waiting for is coming.......<br /><br />We hd prepared for tonite for almost 2 weeks..........<br />Talent's nite is actually a nite totally for all the CC juniors to show their talents...they had their own perfomances...and the seniors were the audience....<br /><br />And i was the master of ceremony of tat nite...even i used to be a MC be4...bt still i think im not gd enough on tat nite...till everyone citics about me...talked something bad behind me...i hate the feeling...i was like a stupid,like a fool!!!i hate.....i hate.....till i hate CC sometimes....u all can tell me face to face abt my weakness,or gv some opinion or wat u all disatisfy...but pls dun talk behind me....i really hate such feeling....really....<br /><br />At the end, we have a session for all the "big hands" to find out who is their "small hands"..as we (all the juniors) are small hands and the seniors are big hands...for ur infomation,we had a writing letters section before talent's nite where small hands need to write letters to their big hands by not letting the seniors knw who r them...so normally, we use our nickname to write letters and put the letters in pigeon hole...i was really have fun by writing letters but it took me some time to write....i hd write to 5 big hands....hehe..so greed....haha...and here i'm so sorry to those who thought i'm small dophin n actually i'm not....wakakakaka...<br /><br />we end the talent's nite by singing CC song....CC is like my another home???i wonder.....i need to reconsider....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-933859743954047913?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-14845979593073616692008-07-30T12:55:00.000-07:002008-10-03T13:27:32.584-07:00Today is actually cc supper nite where all the seniors and juniors get together in a restaurant outside the campus...At first,i was wondering why we need to walk so far in order to have a simple dinner???is it really have fun???i ponder....<br /><br />But soon i discovered that we were really enjoyed while walking toward the restaurant...we talked along the journey...we talked non stop...either talked to seniors or juniors...we talked abt everything...it was actually a nice chat...<br /><br />at the momment we reached the restaurant, i found something interesting..haha...tat was we need to register v the seniors in-charge be4 we entered the restaurant...so funny..and still,it was my 1st time to do so...there were so many people were waiting inside....i was in table no-19...yeah together v seniors-jianhau, jessica, aisian, n huiting...great to sat in same table v them...they r so cute n i knew they tried very hard to break the ice...haha...<br /><br />ohh yaa..tis was the 1st ever time i ate pork after i entered for almost one month....i mean ate pork together v all cc members laa...it was a nice feeling...<br />we did celebrate some friends' birthday...we sang birthday song...we enjoyed the lion dance perfomance...n we did sang many songs as fairwell songs to kian seng n akceil...<br /><br />i really enjoyed the time we sang songs together, chit chatting together n of course ate pork together...haha...CC is really like my another home....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-1484597959307361669?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-6243076594852736652008-07-15T02:38:00.000-07:002008-10-03T13:25:31.974-07:00I still remembered tat i was so nervous and scared to discover a new and strange place(7th coll) alone...but then i still have to do so...the 1st person i met was PM Soo...n then were Eric n Pui Ying...they were so nice at beginning by guiding me wat to do...ohh yaa...i think my eyes were temporarily blind at tat moment bcoz i walked to wrong room...damn fool...i got room C415 but i went to the room D415...huh~~so stupid~~i tried very hard to open the room D415 by using the key of C415 and asked the people around to help me to open the door...n later i just realised tat i hd made a great mistake...haha...huh~~i was so blur and dizzy~~<br /><br />I was the first check in the room...Sooner,my roomates - Shin Yen and Xin Hui reached...hehe~~no comment for them...coz i still not really knw who were they actually...i knew only their name n wat courses they were offered...tat's all...haha...bcoz we hd too much time to knw more abt each other...<br /><br />Then, we were asked to gather at dewan nukleus for a short briefing at 2pm...Here, i met my old frenz from segamat...-feimian...we got to knw each other through a camp called PJKN 2006...huh~~suddenly i was afraid by the shoutening of PM Kian Seng,he was the head of biro dicipline...In the introduction session of our PM, wat i can say was they were not well organised...i really dun knw wat were they doing in front and behind...i can't even spot which PM was been introduced at tat time...may be i was too^<span style="font-size:78%;">100 </span><span style="font-size:100%;">blur...i even dun knw who was my ketua PM...haha...i was so sorry about tat...yaa..one thing i wanted to mention here was all PM seem very mean lor...</span><br /><br />The opening ceremony was held at nite..n i felt sleepy lor...n the hall was so hot until i can't stand of it...huh~~~oh my god...i needed fresh air...the first time i listened to our college song..wahh...really a nice song tat i was falling in love with it later...haha...so crazy...<br /><br />Wat was happening later,i really 4got ald...i only knew tat we slept lately tat nite...but doesn't matter since this was wat we called it minggu haluansiswa maa...haha..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-624307659485273665?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7684165846999031873.post-76097852087122858272008-07-15T02:24:00.000-07:002008-10-03T13:26:19.545-07:00When talked about my orientation week in UM, i would probably said tat it was my night mare. Everyday we had to wake up at the very early in the morning and slept at the late at nite.<br /><br /><br />We were divided in 20 cells which i was in the 19th cell and my cell's PM were PM Nabil and PM Shakti. Wat i could say was he is really a nice guy who always take care of us (i mean those who have health problems). Oh yaa...asthma attacked me badly during orientation week. i really hate asthma, it made me could not join any activities during the haluansiswa week...huhu~~~:(...so sad...especially the cheers...<br /><br /><br /><br />We actually very busy lor...need to go here n there to listen to all kind of briefing...arghh..i hate to listen to talk so much...so,u knw laa...sure i slept during the talk laa...haha...i really felt very boring and sleepy on tat time lor...<br /><br /><br /><br />For me, the most memorable things were the momment when we were scolded n punished by the PMs and the momment we won the champion in the cheers competition lor...they really cruel lor...punished us to half-stand...huhu...so tired n exhausted lor...luckily got somebody safe me from the punishment....thanks him so much....he was the only one who know what happened to me actually....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7684165846999031873-7609785208712285827?l=pheiszi.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Phei Szihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03314417075910631448noreply@blogger.com0